1st impressions..

i came from a hard hit to the wall of conspiracy and dismay.. was living a life of happiness with my gf, now im totally wrecked.. nuff sed.. =c

ok. to start with the right start,

im am someone u dont want to be with.
braggart dummy low level life prick.
tho.. i am not useless u can still use me.. "as a bad example" hehe.. i am very optimistic, often think that life has a better side, a greener pasture. yet, that place is still far from the reach of my hands, i grasp on things untightly.. i am very very very lazy.. i need motivations to do things seriusly. i believe that life will not give the best untill your efforts are recognize.. u have to earn everything. im good at thinking.. about what to do, whats wrong.. but i lack on actions.. letting them pass by my side where the best dumbness i have. i love to hate hate myself from doing that. i often ask myself, " is there any good in me that would make me look perfect as an individual or atleast wud make someone proud of me?!" i cant seem to find the answer now.. but i know.. soon.. soon.. just soon.. lid of my box were open, let me look at me. il find it out!